so hard and for so long. i guess that’s a good thing. but now that i finally have a chance to catch my breath — well, why not pour some words onto the blog i started almost eight (i just did the math and holy shit does time fly) years ago?
this isn’t the route i was going to take when i considered logging in for the first time since months (it might’ve been the summer — august or some shit like that). but once i looked to see when my last post was, i figured it’s been a while. so why not.
i remember way back when i started this blog in the summer of 2010. no one, myself included, really knew much what tumblr was back then. but seeing that at the time it was a place for cool quotes/pictures/memes (and by memes i mean the og fuuuu comics and shit like that), i said what the hell and started checking in here on a nightly basis. my participation here added up far more than facebook, twitter and whatever other social media platform that was hot at the moment. over time, this thing turned into a place where i would put my thoughts into words. from my first heartbreak to some in-and-out instances of anxiety and scattered thoughts of depression, through some of my worst moments, i turned to here for an outlet. being someone who keeps as much to their self as i do, i sure am glad that i did.
it’s insane to think about how fast time goes. i know that’s some cliche shit, but really. i went from posting about how crazy it felt graduating high school to doing the same after four years of college. then, after a few continued months of job hunting, onto the real world where i’ve been ever since. it’s so important to take a step back and appreciate where you are, where you were and where you plan to go. i’ve always thought that deep down, but it’s especially surfacing right now the more i reminisce.
things aren’t perfect. they never are. i’m in a first job that, for my industry, is an incredibly opportunistic position to take right out of school. the salary might not reflect that, and it sure as hell reflects sometimes with the way i’m living compared to my friends from home, but it’s all about exponential growth (right?) and with that in mind i’ll just continue to keep my head down and do the work until that next opportunity comes. it’s not easy being so far away from home for the first time in my life. i grew up in my home state and stayed put for college. then i moved damn near halfway across the country. i’ve been out here on my own ever since and it sure isn’t always pretty. but like anything else, you have to adapt. i’m still undergoing that process months later, but i’m trying. trust me, i am.
i don’t know where i’m going with this, but i do know that i wanted to spill words from my mind onto something. just as it did when i was a young teenager back then, it serves the same purpose here and now. as time continues to move and life goes on, a step back to appreciate the little things is forever important. perspective is imperative.
be back soon.
